I’m just a girl
I need no name
Books my ally
Shyness thy name
I’m just that girl
Dancing to the taps of rain
And smiling to the fragrance of
Torn pages and coffee stains.
Hello! Namaste! Anyoung haseyo!
Welcome to my blog ‘Beyond the Black Sea’. I write under the pseudonym ‘Jeiji’ which was bestowed upon me by a very dear friend. So I write under this pen name in memory of the girl I once was and the beautiful memories that still linger in the deep recesses of my sub-conscious being.
I am not a writer or a poet or anything even close to that. Neither am I a photographer or a painter, dancer or even close to be called a singer. Yet I enjoy all these activities in my own imperfect way. I’m a practicing imperfectionist who believes perfection is just an illusion. People vary in their degree of imperfection and we as a race have woefully classified it as ‘perfection’.
Since I could read, I’ve been best friends with books. My earliest memories include the Sunday mornings I spent reading stories to my younger sibling from the weekly children’s magazine. It was fun, hilarious and a great bonding time for the two of us.
I’ve always had a diary with me since I was in elementary school. And though the topics changed from the cartoon reviews and fairy tales to the struggles of life and blessings in disguise as I grew up, the fact is that aside from my sibling, my diary has been my sole partner-in-crime, waiting for me to pour out my deepest fears and most joyous moments. And that is the reason why I feel most peaceful when I hold a pen and paper in my hand.
I’m quiet, nerdy, shy, wallflower, a night owl and more, so much more. I am the girl who can be found with her head bent over a book and music blasting out of her headphones. I love late nights and early mornings, libraries, coffee, ink pens and the faint fragrance of paper etched between books old & new. I am polite, friendly, cheerful, semi-optimist and a feminist. And sometimes I believe I was born in the wrong era but that could be just me.
Why this blog?
I write with complete honesty, the good, the bad and everything in between. It is a privilege that can not be freely exercised in the real world we live in. Although I believe ‘white lies’ harm none, yet, lies when told time and again, have a tendency to make you forget what the truth was and gradually, these lies become the ultimate truth. Hence when I write, I tend to be honest, too honest actually. I let all my inner thoughts pour out in a big wave, right one after the other. But then physical diaries are a touch too tedious to hide from prying eyes. So I am starting this blog and cataloging my foray into the adult world as I write about books, dramas, life and anything else that keeps me awake at night including/not including the brain farts I suffer from time to time.
This blog is me stepping out of my comfort zone and putting myself out for others to judge, critique and learning to brave it all. This is the place I document the world as seen through my eyes and I hope there are people out there who can connect to some aspects of my life.
Why the title and the tagline?
If you meet me in the real world, you would find me quiet, very quiet. I rarely speak out in a group. One-on-one conversations are fine with me but I can not for the life of me find the courage to speak out in group discussions. Also, I often come out a little shy. Mix these up and you get lots of hilarious and nerve-wrecking stories that could easily scare away ghosts of the past, present and future. And that’s what I wished to rectify when I named this blog Beyond the Black Sea. This blog is my journal that would bear witness to my endeavours as I learn to crawl my way outside the comforts of the known and trudge albeit clumsily to a better version of me. As Lao Tzu said, ” If you are depressed, you’re living in the past. If you are anxious, you’re living in the future.If you are at peace, you’re living in the present. “
My goal is to accomplish all this and more. I wish to heal myself from the
depression pebbles life throws my way, forgetting my worries of the future and the what-ifs of the past. I want to live in the present; enjoy the little, not-so-important moments that make up the biggest chunk of life. I no longer want to be stuck in the vacuum of my own making. And who better than me to help myself. So this is my Road to Self-Healing, to a beautiful, happy life and a cheerful me.
Apart from this, there is an interesting story as to why I named my blog that particular way. If interested you may read it here. Fans of K-drama and music will love it for sure.
Hope you enjoy your stay here.
PS: If you are family, friends and acquaintances from real world, remember, the words you find here are uncensored. So please continue at your own risk.